Because from the moment I conceived my first child until I had my second, no one had asked me that question - ‘What’s going on inside of you, how are you doing, mama?’” “I like to believe that that question saved my life. “She sat me down, and I know moved by the Lord, she said, ‘How’s your heart? What’s going on? What’s happening inside of you?’ And that question made a big difference,” the singer detailed. However, God orchestrated an intervention with her midwife that would help D’Clario break free. The shame caused D’Clario not to share her struggles with anyone. “What are people going to say about the God that you preach?”Īccording to , approximately about 70% to 80% of women will experience, at a minimum, “the ‘baby blues.” Many others will experience the more severe condition of postpartum depression or a “related condition.” Postpartum depression can take different forms, and its awareness first arose during the 1980s. “What are people going to say about you?” she wondered. It screamed at me every day.”ĭ’Clario thought about what people would think about the fact she goes on stage and preaches life, but “everything that is in cries out death?” “And that was the really hard part because shame. “In postpartum depression, I became suicidal again,” she acknowledged. She told CP she was running herself “completely dry.” I had not learned to give from what I had, and for years, I had been giving from what I didn’t have.” “I had not learned that ‘no’ is not a bad word.
My mind was depleted, my heart was depleted, my body, my hormones, my chemistry, I was fully depleted.” “I was depleted in every way, shape or form. “I fell into a terrible postpartum depression after I had my second child,” she said. Her two children, Ian and Kenzie, are 16 months apart. Now married and doing ministry with her husband for nearly two decades, D’Clario, who also struggled with infertility, says she found herself in a dark place again following the birth of her second child. The artist’s book The Prodigal Heartdetails her journey. But she had a “coming to Jesus moment” in 2003, where God showed D'Clario that He had His eyes were always on her. In that phase of her life, the singer said she faced suicidal thoughts. “And frankly, I was just angry at the world and at God because of all the brokenness that I was enduring, and I didn’t have an outlet to heal it, or at least I didn’t know I had an outlet to heal it.”ĭ’Clario said after a couple of years leading a “covert double life,” she hit “rock bottom.” “Whenever I was away in college, I was leading a life that was absolute opposite to what a child of God does because I was so broken,” she said. She admitted she was living a “broken” life even when she was a worship leader singing in church as a young adult. When she matured into an attractive young lady, she received lots of male attention that she did not want. On top of that, she was bullied because she was different from other kids. When she was 6, she lost her father to addiction. The Latin worshiper admitted that she forcefully let the Lord intervene in her healing, which peeled away a major layer of brokenness to reveal His character in her.ĭ’Clario said her brokenness began when she was 5 years old after being sexually abused.
The 39-year-old said the songs came out of a season where she came to the “very end” of herself. “I say that because the group of songs that’s in this project particularly are the songs that came out of a very arduous journey with mental health, recovery and inner healing.” “This album, project, season, worship environment for me has a very, very strong deposit of healing,” the New York native who moved to Puerto Rico when she was a child shared with The Christian Post in a recent video interview that can be seen below.
Hasta Poder Veris the title of her latest Spanish album, which was simultaneously released in English under the title All that Remainslast year. Worship leader - Christine D’Clario | High Ground MediaĪward-winning worship leader Christine D’Clario has opened up about her battle with suicidal thoughts and the shame that came with it because of her role in ministry.ĭ’Clario is embarking on the “ Hasta Poder Ver” tour featuring Evan Craft this spring and will bring a powerful message about mental health and the Church while sharing her journey through her latest album of the same name.
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